since you ask me about makeup so much

there is nothing i love more in this world than make up. i spend a ridiculous amount on a variety of beauty products. one of my favorite is red lipstick. i have 509283 different shades of red. so a lot of ppl say that they feel that they cant wear red lipstick...yes you can you just have to determine if you need a  warm or cool tone shade. cooler shades have more blues in them and look better on ppl who can wear silver jewelery. warm tones are for those who look better in gold jewelry and have more oranges in them. the wrist test is your best bet. take the lipstick and rub and dab a bit on the inside of your wrist. now go out there and be a hooker in all the wines, plums, orange-reds, reddish pinks and million other shades you can find

dammit i ended up youtube again

Youtube is of the devil. like you can waste hours watching the most random stuff on there. like there is literally everything on there. i have watched a live birth and a quickweave being done (not at the same time obviously) but how many times have you been doing work but ended up watching the craziest stuff on there. like there is some worthwhile stuff like spanish lessons and if you ever needed to learn how to change a tire.....but  i like foolishness. here are some of my fave videos

so how much time of your life did you just spend watching these when you could have been productive? and just think these are like 6 of a million something videos smh p.s. that last video is of my crushes they are the reason im moving to dallas. they live in atl now but if they make them like that down there chile

because i can

i love this song i love this video i love j. cole...drake's hanidcap ass is in there too but yea anyway I LOVE J COLE! he is second only to wale in the kleenex nigga rap category

what goes up must come down

so it is a proven fact that when men cheat they cheat down, and when women cheat we cheat up. down and up indicate the level of the person you are cheating with. men cheat for the dumbest reasons and usually its just out of opportunity. they could have an amazing woman who looks good has a mind of her own and treats them extremely well but they will give this up for the next piece of ass that comes by. women are different. we usually cheat because something is lacking in the relationship or because we find something better. we define better as looks, financial standing, emotional support, conversation..... the list goes on to include a ton of things that men dont consider.

women cheat so that when your mate isnt acting right you can think to yourself hey who cares what he does i just had a great date with someone who is shitting on you! men sometimes cheat for emotional reasons but its rare. like when dwayne cheated on whitley when they were planning the wedding because she started to go crazy. honestly men cheat out of sheer stupidity and their own physical desires.

personally i feel the whole point of cheating is to upgrade. when i cheat on my girl which i dont.......i usually do it with someone who is several steps up. what is the purpose in downgrading? someone seriously explain

save our souls

 So think about the number of people you’ve had sex with. Now think about the number of people you’ve been in relationships with. I mean like serious relationships. Balanced, healthy, monogamous, honest relationships. Ok a lot of those words can’t apply too often, but you get what I mean…not oh this is my boo jont no them saying this is my gf/bf. You’ve met their friends or fam and you are an integral part of each other’s life and not just on one side like I mean you both consider it a relationship. When I did that the difference was almost double. Usually the relationship came after sex….but lesbians do things a little differently, but even with the few guys I have been with this was the same case and I know for a fact I’m not the only one so stop judging me heaux. (Why did Becky just come on? Pandora knows what I’m writing about. This song is like really nasty like I’m just realizing this I’ve never had a dick in my mouth and I don’t ever plan to but this just confirms it he said put that spit right on the head….#icant )

So yes of course it’s easier to develop a physical relationship or act than it is to take the time to open you heart and emotions to someone.  Getting your heart broken hurts worse than getting your hymen broken and a much bigger risk to take so often people shy away from investing the time and emotion it takes to fall in love with someone. It doesn’t take much to get to the point that you wanna have sex with someone. They say that you know as soon as you meet someone you know if you’re gonna sleep with them or not. If only it was that easy to know of you could be in a relationship with someone. If as soon as you met someone you could know their good and bad qualities, relationship history, how compatible you are, just all the things you have to consider before you enter a relationship with someone. Sadly this is not the case and we have to go through the whole to do of finding all this information out maybe to discover that they aren’t worth it or even worse they don’t wanna be in a relationship with you. They just want sex and you are right back at square one with the issue of plenty of people to bang and not one to love. Hell some people can’t even get to square one because they aren’t even getting any dang a lang thrown their way.

It seems that our generation is destined to be full of orgasms, but emotionally starved. Im under the process of trying to discover what caused this because our parents and def our grandparents were not like this. They might have been an undercover freak by getting in it before they tied the knot, but it was nowhere near what can be considered an extreme because there are 16 year olds with double digit body counts and have surpassed their grown parents.

I get 20 “im horny” texts from my friends a day but rarely does someone say hey I’m seeking someone who loves me for who I am and wants to be there for me as more than just someone to violate my vagina. I’m guilty of this too, many a time I’ve said why are we still talking when we could be smanging, but I’m a victim of the 21^st century mindset too. I fear what my children’s lives will be like. Will they completely lose the art of an emotional connection and the world is nothing but physical connections? Im not having kids until I’m married and they will see me and my wife having a healthy and loving marriage, but they still have the influences of the media and their peers. 20 years from now should be very interesting.

PSA pt 2

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give me what i want!

So I am notorious for acting the whole fool when I don’t get my way. Call it only child syndrome but I raise hell until I get what I want. Some people call it spoiled but I say look at your success rate and now look at mine. Persistence is key. Now I’m not talking about extreme stuff the like pet penguin I’ve been wanting forever just simple stuff like grade changes or getting a ride. Me and my mom are in a battle right now and two immovable forces are hilarious to watch fight. Closed mouths don’t get fed if you want something ask for it or shut the hell up complaining that things aren’t going your way. No one makes things happen except you!

Top 3 sleeps

3. the sleep you get when youre sick is great. maybe its the drugs or your body resting and trying to recover itself but either way when you have a bad cold you can sleep for hours. its a deep coma like sleep. now you might wake up drowning in mucus like i did the other day but i woke up extra refreshed and ready to run a marathon...ok not really cuz i couldnt breathe but otherwise i felt extra refreshed. there was mucus and snot everywhere though ok TMI

2. drunk sleep is great. i mean when you are like seriously drunk. like if you just go to sleep or you pass out when you are heavily under the influence that is some of the best sleep. nothing can wake you up. last time i was super drunk i woke up in my bed, naked with my hair wrapped, and couldnt remember anything. i felt like i had been asleep for days and it was amazing. you may even wake up still drunk but either way it feels great. you feel hella dehydrated but its worth it for that amazing sleep.

1. one of my favorite places to sleep is church. its just warm and comfy. soon as the sermon starts i am knocked out on whoever  is next to me. theres just an overwhelming sense of peace that make you feel so safe and you just doze off. you might be scared awake by some random woman shouting but before that happens everything is wonderful....well until an usher elbows the shit outta you

someone mentioned the sleep after sex is the best but i dont sleep after sex....sex makes me hungry i go make a sandwich

community service

so someone called me bougie just because i have standards. im sorry but i dont give community service pussy. like i dont think my standards are extreme i just feel that my vagina is very important to me and i dont wanna waste it on just any old bum.  like you can treat your vagina like a halfway house if you want to but really dont you feel a little ashamed when he's done and ask to borrow your smarttrip so he can get home? if you dont then hey boo go ahead and do you.

i know im a broke college student so like i can understand another broke college student but if you're giving it up to ( i lowkey wish my jcole pandora station would actually play some jcole but anywhore) to ShaQuan who doesnt have a job and stays with his cousin then hmm ok yea you are giving community service pussy. its not called being shallow its called having self worth. i want someone who is at an equal level or can exceed me. call it bougie if you want to but im not spreading my legs for just anyone. college isnt for everyone so im not even saying super educated im just of the belief that if you arent in school you need to be working. and while i love mcdonalds and understand you gotta get it how you live im not letting you in my bed smelling like a big mac...i may eat them but that doesnt mean im gonna eat one...get it.

everyone has to make their own decisions and i am in no position to judge anyone im just saying think about your self esteem before you give it up. your pussy need not be a soup kitchen

secret turn on part 3

so idk when im gonna stop telling you all my business probably never lol. so my third secret turn on is tattoos. idk why but skin covered in artwork gets me every time. i love full sleeves, chest plates, and neck pieces. i guess it kinda goes with the hood rat and fitted thing

it was all a dream

i had a dream that  Wale and i went on a date so that is my destiny.....

he told me he loved me and that the way i smoke is sexy :)

Chris Brown aint got shit on Flynt Flossy!

so turquoise jeep records is my new favorite form of entertainment. im still not sure if they are serious or a joke but either way they have a ton of videos that are beyond hilarity look them up on youtube below is my other fave from them ps these are the same guys that made let me smang it girl

Wheres the bathroom

ok yall know i hate using public restrooms and will hold it for hours until i can get to my toilet  or a private residence. the idea of sitting my precious ass cheeks on the same spot as some random whose hygiene i am not familiar with just ugh bury me now.

i am so used to doing the pee pee dance. i always have to pee because i drink an extreme amount of water on a daily basis. the other day i was bouncing around in my seat trying to keep it together and not soak through my leggings. i was convinced that my bladder was so full that it was spilling over into my other organs. the worst is when you get really close to the bathroom and it feels like you have to pee even more.

i love when i finally get to a bathroom and it feels like im peeing for like three minutes.....speaking of that how long  is a typical pee? like 20 seconds or something? ill time it next time and let you know. thank the baby jesus that i do kegels everyday and have the ability to not piss on myself

anyway gotta go literally...i might have to rave these ilab bathrooms pray for me

I keep forgetting we're not in love anymore

i dont even like fantasia but this song knocks especially considering the subject matter and my life

so im supposed to be doing work so yea you know what that mean, but actually im almost done. so anyway i keep thinking about this...can you stop loving someone? a lot of people say that once you love someone its forever or you weren't ever actually in love with them. i dont believe this because i have no feelings toward any of the people i have ever been in love with because time has passed and the lack of communication and interaction has allowed me to release all emotions for them. i have a convo with someone about this and they told me they still have feelings for someone they have not been in a relationship with for over 3 years. well i might be a cold heartless bitch but out of sight out of heart for me. once im over you the emotions leave. it takes awile but it does happen.

i guess if you are in love with someone you tend to hold on to the memories and emotions...well if thats the case why arent you all together now? hmm hmm dont worry ill wait. i have been in relationships where we were damn near married and if i had a pocketful of fucks i couldnt give a half of one about them. i had someone give me a ring and you know what i did with it? threw that bitch in my neighbors yard. i still wanted them about two months later but after that i was over it and know im not in love anymore. i really dont understand how you can say you will always love someone. my parents were married for 11 years and now they cant stand each other.  the only thing they still love regarding each other is the amazing genetic cocktail that they were able to concoct which is me :)

love is one of the strongest emotions that a person can feel but commonly we mistakenly feel it. everyone has a different definition of love and until you can separate love and infatuation you cannot truly feel that emotion. too many people say it without truly comprehending what it means for them and that relationship. sometimes we convince ourselves that we are in love with someone based on what we see on paper. obligated love is shallow and not everlasting.

you may have love for someone forever based on what you felt in the past , but more than likely you are not still in love with them. how can you be in love with someone you havent talked to in years? ppl are constantly changing and evolving so you may be in love with who they were last year, but do you even know them anymore? this is why i think its very possible to stop loving someone. im in love with a few two years ago people but their present existence disgust me. but then again my heart is two sizes too small.