save our souls

 So think about the number of people you’ve had sex with. Now think about the number of people you’ve been in relationships with. I mean like serious relationships. Balanced, healthy, monogamous, honest relationships. Ok a lot of those words can’t apply too often, but you get what I mean…not oh this is my boo jont no them saying this is my gf/bf. You’ve met their friends or fam and you are an integral part of each other’s life and not just on one side like I mean you both consider it a relationship. When I did that the difference was almost double. Usually the relationship came after sex….but lesbians do things a little differently, but even with the few guys I have been with this was the same case and I know for a fact I’m not the only one so stop judging me heaux. (Why did Becky just come on? Pandora knows what I’m writing about. This song is like really nasty like I’m just realizing this I’ve never had a dick in my mouth and I don’t ever plan to but this just confirms it he said put that spit right on the head….#icant )

So yes of course it’s easier to develop a physical relationship or act than it is to take the time to open you heart and emotions to someone.  Getting your heart broken hurts worse than getting your hymen broken and a much bigger risk to take so often people shy away from investing the time and emotion it takes to fall in love with someone. It doesn’t take much to get to the point that you wanna have sex with someone. They say that you know as soon as you meet someone you know if you’re gonna sleep with them or not. If only it was that easy to know of you could be in a relationship with someone. If as soon as you met someone you could know their good and bad qualities, relationship history, how compatible you are, just all the things you have to consider before you enter a relationship with someone. Sadly this is not the case and we have to go through the whole to do of finding all this information out maybe to discover that they aren’t worth it or even worse they don’t wanna be in a relationship with you. They just want sex and you are right back at square one with the issue of plenty of people to bang and not one to love. Hell some people can’t even get to square one because they aren’t even getting any dang a lang thrown their way.

It seems that our generation is destined to be full of orgasms, but emotionally starved. Im under the process of trying to discover what caused this because our parents and def our grandparents were not like this. They might have been an undercover freak by getting in it before they tied the knot, but it was nowhere near what can be considered an extreme because there are 16 year olds with double digit body counts and have surpassed their grown parents.

I get 20 “im horny” texts from my friends a day but rarely does someone say hey I’m seeking someone who loves me for who I am and wants to be there for me as more than just someone to violate my vagina. I’m guilty of this too, many a time I’ve said why are we still talking when we could be smanging, but I’m a victim of the 21^st century mindset too. I fear what my children’s lives will be like. Will they completely lose the art of an emotional connection and the world is nothing but physical connections? Im not having kids until I’m married and they will see me and my wife having a healthy and loving marriage, but they still have the influences of the media and their peers. 20 years from now should be very interesting.